Accident

Baru-baru ni abang aku accident motor, esoknya pula makcik aku pula accident. Allahu. Cuma Allah je yang tahu betapa emosi aku terganggu dengan berita kemalangan ni

These past few years were quite hard for me. Even sampai sekarang aku masih lagi shaking, menangis secara tiba-tiba dan rasa susah nak bernafas bila ternampak kemalangan live di depan mata. Nasib baik so far bila nampak kemalangan, time tu aku drive sorang. Jadi tak ada orang perasan kelemahan aku yang datang tanpa disedari ni. Walaupun deep down in my heart I wish there’s someone with me untuk tolong drive because I’m full of tears. Tapi tulah, you’re your own hero, kan dearself?

Aku masih ingat lagi dengan jelas peristiwa 5/9/2017, the day when we were not in the same world anymore. I watched the CCTV of his accident. Dia menghembuskan nafas terakhir di tempat kejadian. Sebab kematian: Spine injuries. Brek mengejut apabila ada kereta yang masuk simpang tanpa beri signal. Dia tengah laju kat jalan lurus. I saw clearly the spark on the road as he tried so hard to stop his motorcycle.. dan dia terperosok masuk ke bawah kereta tu dan digilis. *cried*

I.. and since that day, I didn’t received any WhatsApp message from him anymore. He’s now in a place that i can’t reach anymore. Dan aku sangat menyesal sebab lambat reply WhatsApp dia that day...

I did my best making myself busy as much as I can on the remaining days of my internship and on my final year of degree. I was trying so hard to survive until i forgot about my goals and dreams. 

Recently, the person who I want to treasure the most asked me about my plan in 5 years from now.

I did my best to survive. That’s all I have for now, that’s my very tiny achievement. I took too long, kan?

I’m truly sorry that my progress is too slow

But i promise, I will do my best to figure it out